The Miles Ahead

I am sitting at Les Schwab replacing tires that have not yet failed.

There are still many miles left in them. The question is whether they are the right miles for what lies ahead.

Soon I will begin a twelve-week grape-hauling season. Long days, heavy loads and changing road conditions will ask more of these tires than an ordinary trip across town. So I am replacing them early—not because they cannot carry me through today, but because I am responsible for where they must carry me tomorrow.

If I judged the tires only by today’s demands, replacing them might seem unnecessary. They brought me to the shop. They could probably take me home again. Nothing about them demands immediate attention.

The coming season does.

We tend to think of maintenance as repairing something that has broken. A warning light appears, a belt begins to squeal or a tire goes flat, and we respond. By then, however, maintenance has given way to an emergency.

Proper maintenance usually happens earlier and receives very little attention. No one sees the breakdown that never occurred. No one knows about the dangerous moment that was avoided or the delivery that arrived on time because someone acted before action became urgent.

Neglect is equally quiet.

It rarely announces itself with a catastrophe. More often, it whispers, “You can get a little more out of this.”

And sometimes we can.

One more trip. One more week. One more season.

Each time nothing goes wrong, postponement begins to feel like wisdom. We congratulate ourselves for extracting a little more value from something, never considering that we may be spending the margin we will need later.

Tires that perform adequately on a warm afternoon may tell a different story on a wet highway under a heavy load. The weakness was already present. The difficult conditions merely revealed it.

Life works that way too.

We often measure our condition by whether we are still functioning. We are getting the work done, meeting our obligations and making it home at the end of the day. Because nothing has failed, we assume everything is ready.

But being functional today is not the same as being prepared for tomorrow.

We should not wait until parts of our lives are completely worn out before caring for them. Our strength, our health, our relationships and our spiritual lives all require attention before something breaks.

Not everything needs to be replaced, of course. Some things need rest. Some need adjustment. Some need repair. Others simply need us to notice that the demands ahead will be greater than those behind us.

Maintenance is the discipline of paying attention before something has to cry out.

It is also an act of stewardship.

Stewardship is not squeezing the final mile out of everything we have been given. It is caring for what has been entrusted to us so that it remains dependable when it matters most. The consequences of neglect, however, rarely belong to us alone.

The grapes these tires will help me retrieve belong to us, and our winery depends upon their safe arrival. We have too much invested in the harvest to be careless about how it gets home.

But the road home does not belong to me. I will share it with people who know nothing about my grapes, our winery or the twelve-week season ahead. They should not have to bear the consequences of maintenance I chose to postpone.

Preparing well is one way I can honor both—the harvest I am bringing home and the people traveling beside me.

Soon the work at the tire shop will be finished, and I will drive away on new tires. Nothing dramatic will happen. There will be no evidence that replacing them early prevented anything at all.

That is all right. The best results of proper maintenance are often the things that never happen.

Today I am preparing for miles I have not yet traveled and responsibilities that have not yet arrived. Some things deserve our attention not because they have failed, but because they matter too much to wait until they do.

Until next time,

George

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The Space Between the Notes

I used to think music was made entirely of sound. Then I began paying attention to the rests.

I compose music. Much of composing involves deciding what should be heard—which notes belong in the melody, which chords should support them and what rhythm will carry the piece forward.

But a composer must also decide when nothing should be heard.

A rest is not an empty place where the composer ran out of ideas. It is written deliberately. It has a precise beginning and duration, and the musician must perform it as carefully as any note.

Enter too early and the right note becomes wrong. Wait too long and the music loses its intended movement.

Silence, it turns out, is not the absence of music.

It is part of the composition.

That can be difficult for a musician. When everyone around you is playing, doing nothing does not feel particularly musical. Your fingers are ready. Your eyes continue moving across the page. Everything in you anticipates the moment when you will contribute again.

But your assignment, for now, is to wait—and to remain attentive while doing it.

The temptation to fill an empty measure is not limited to musicians.

We live in a culture that rewards visible activity, quick answers and immediate reactions. When conversation grows quiet, we reach for words. When the house becomes still, we introduce noise. When prayer receives no immediate answer, we wonder whether God is listening.

When life stops moving at the tempo we prefer, we assume something has gone wrong.

So we rush to fill the measure.

I have done this more often than I care to admit. I have spoken when listening would have been more helpful. I have acted when patience would have been wiser. I have attempted to manufacture progress because waiting made me feel as though I was contributing nothing.

A composer can continue adding notes until every available space has been occupied. More melody. More harmony. More movement. Yet there comes a point when adding something else does not make the music richer.

It only makes it crowded.

Sometimes the most important decision a composer makes is not what to add, but what to remove.

Life can become crowded in the same way. We fill our schedules, conversations and thoughts until there is no room to hear anything beyond the noise we have created. We become so accustomed to activity that rest begins to feel irresponsible.

But rest was present from the beginning.

After six days of creation, God rested. Not because He was exhausted or had run out of ideas. His rest completed the rhythm of creation.

Jesus also withdrew from crowds and activity to spend time alone. Silence and solitude were not interruptions of His purpose. They were part of it.

Rest is not necessarily a reward for finishing everything. If that were the requirement, few of us would ever qualify.

Rest can be an act of trust. It acknowledges that the world continues turning when we stop pushing it. It reminds us that our worth is not measured entirely by our output and that God does not depend upon our constant activity to accomplish His purposes.

Some rests are chosen. Others arrive without invitation.

An opportunity disappears. A relationship changes. An expected answer does not come. A door closes, and we find ourselves standing in a measure we did not write and would prefer not to perform.

We can mistake those seasons for abandonment.

But perhaps we have simply reached a rest.

That does not make waiting painless or passive. A musician counting several empty measures must continue following the music. The performer listens, counts and prepares for the next entrance.

There is a difference between resting and quitting.

Quitting abandons the composition. Resting remains attentive to it.

Perhaps your work feels unproductive, your prayers seem unanswered or the direction that once felt clear has become uncertain. You may be tempted to play something—anything—just to break the silence.

But an early note can disturb what is being created.

There are moments when faithfulness sounds like action. There are others when faithfulness sounds like silence.

The wisdom is knowing which measure we are in.

Music requires both sound and silence. Life does too. The notes allow us to express what is within us. The rests give us room to listen for what comes next.

If life seems unusually quiet right now, don’t assume the song is over.

The silence may be part of the music.

Living On Purpose: One Day At A Time, Part Two

“Happy birthday, son”, words from a June phone conversation I had with my father for my twelfth birthday; my birthday is in April.  He never took the time to get to know me as my parents separated and divorced while I was still in diapers.  An absent father has been one of the many events that have shaped my life.

I remember standing in the hospital on March 31st, 1992 and holding a five-pound baby boy, my first child, promising to always know him.  I promised to be ever-present in his life.  I promised not to treat him as my father had treated me.  I was going to provide for him, teach him to become an honorable man and model an authentic relationship with God before him.  On February 26th, 1993, I made a similar resolve as I spoke over my second son and promised him the same proactivity as my first son.  These are promises I have kept now for nearly twenty years.

My children have grown to be fantastic young men.  I’m very proud of them and excited to see how God will use their lives in the years to come.  It hasn’t been easy but it has been rewarding.

Twenty-six years ago, parked on the shoulder of highway 167 in my Subaru Brat, in Renton, Washington I envisioned what my life would become.  Today, with very few exceptions, I’m here – I won’t stay here – mind you – I’ve got work to do and places to go.  But, my life is exactly where I purposed it to be.

Let me share with you how I got here: one day at a time.  Don’t leave – I know that’s a simple statement but one that needs a bit of explaining.  So stick with me…  Everyone in life – every day of his or her life – develops.  We develop emotionally, intellectually, spiritually and physically.  Unfortunately, most people develop solely reacting to situations and circumstances.  Like a pinball, they’re flung to and fro never really knowing which way is which.  They wake up, work a lot, play little, have families, experience joy, pain and disappointment.  They live life never really knowing who or what they’re becoming.  The whole of their existence has been one reaction after another.  That’s no way to live – but it’s how most people live.

Instead of living a reactive life – be proactive.  Determine who you want to be and where you want to go and get there – one day at a time.  Over the last couple of decades I’ve developed a system that I call My Personal Development.  It’s currently in the form of a Microsoft Excel file that you can download here if you’re interested.

Let me tell you how I use it:

Everyday I ask myself thirteen questions based on the virtues Benjamin Franklin asked himself.  I also evaluate the steps I take to becoming a person of influence.  I follow everything up with a quick journal entry that begins with the word, “Yesterday”.  I find it helpful to look one day over my shoulder so I can make mid-course corrections and stay proactive in my development.  In the journal portion, I write about the previous day and evaluate my contacts, conversations, regrets, and moments of celebration.  If, during the course of the journal entry, I discover something that needs corrected – I make it right as soon as possible and optimally that day.  Mornings are my most successful time to use the system.  You use it when you feel it works best in your schedule.  The important thing isn’t the time of day; the important thing is to use it everyday or most days.  Be consistent, proactive and get there one day at a time!

Living On Purpose: One Day At A Time, Part One

The “S” curves along Interstate 405 South to State Route 167 were usually slow at this time of day.  Beginning about 2pm, traffic on any major roadways in and around Seattle are equivalent to the cholesterol clogged arteries of anyone on a steady diet of biscuits and sausage gravy for breakfast, McDonald’s quarter pounder with cheese and fries for lunch, and Pizza Hut for dinner.  Within a half mile of pulling onto 167, I was bound the shoulder because I could no longer see the road through my tears.

Rewind about two hours…  I was just finishing class for the day at Northwest Bible College when I heard about Darrell, a local pastor who I idolized, thought was a great example of someone who knew and followed God, and someone I had no idea what was really going on in the darkest corners of his life.  Darrell flushed his vows when he left his wife, family and church to find solace in the arms of another woman: the church secretary.  Rewind another year and you’ll discover another idolized pastor, named Robert, who’s erring decision involved not the church secretary, but the church piano player.

I was devastated; sitting on the shoulder in my 1984 Subaru Brat trying to convince myself it was worth driving another foot further.  It was Wednesday and we had youth group at the church where I was a youth ministry intern.  I usually arrived at the church around 3pm to set up, connect with students and get ready for the night.  However, today I wasn’t going to make it by 3pm.  And, I didn’t make it by 4pm.  I literally sat on the road for a couple of hours praying, asking questions and making life long resolves.

One of the questions I asked:  How does a guy walk away after standing at an altar – before God, a pastor, a soon-to-be bride and a gathered audience – and make vows that 20 years later seemingly mean nothing?  The only answer I could come up with then and still today is this:  One day at a time.  The adverse question gets the same answer:  How does a guy remain faithful to his God, wife, family and church – even after 20+ years of marriage?  The answer:  One day at a time.

An affair.  It begins with little lapses of judgment – things thought to be harmless plant the seeds of demise.  Every decision changes the trajectory of our lives until one day we stand at the point of folly; a leap we’ve been preparing to make for a long time.  Then, in a moment of self-described weakness, life is forever altered.  Everything is ruined.  As far as I’m concerned, you don’t get the benefit of the “weakness card”.  You’ve purposed in your heart to go there as soon as the right situation presented itself.  Sin always results in death.  In this case, it’s the death of your moral authority, potentially your family and any aspirations you had professionally.  The consequences are the same for the church as in the marketplace; your choice brings more change than you planned for.  It’s time to start looking for moving boxes.

One day at a time.  What if we decided – one day at a time – to remain pure, faithful and forthright?  That’s what I decided over 25 years ago on the side of the road near Renton, Washington.  Over the last couple of decades I have been developing a system to help me keep short accounts with my character, resolve and relationship with God and others.  I call this system, My Personal Development.  Next week, I’ll share with you the details of this system.

Until then, check the trajectory of your life.  Where are you headed?  If traversing down a dark path, stop and turn around.  On many levels, you cannot afford the damage, pain and death that moral destruction brings.  What you’re deciding to do is decidedly not worth it.  Stop and turn around.