I Think It’s Coming From You

Breakfast bar featuring waffle makers, coffee machines, and a variety of food options in a warmly decorated setting.

Best Western Bronco Inn, Ritzville Washington

I was in the breakfast area of a hotel preparing an English muffin, fully intending to accompany it with a cup of decaf, when I heard music.

I also heard someone reading the Bible.

That was not what I expected to hear at a hotel breakfast, especially before coffee.

I was surprised—and pleased. As a Christ-follower, I like it when someone is willing to take their relationship with God public. I assumed someone was playing a recording through the hotel speaker system, sending Scripture throughout the breakfast area.

The attendant came out of the back room. We caught each other’s eye, and she said good morning. I returned the greeting and then asked, “So, who’s playing the Bible?”

She looked confused.

“What do you mean?”

“The Bible,” I said again, pointing toward the speaker above my head. “Who’s playing it?”

She said she didn’t know and began apologizing for what we were hearing.

I assured her I was not requesting any action. I certainly wasn’t looking for an apology.

Another woman eating breakfast said she liked it.

“I do, too,” I said.

The attendant kept looking toward the speaker and then around the room, trying to locate the source. Finally, she pointed at me.

“I think it’s coming from you.”

I reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone.

She was right.

The Bible had been playing from my phone the entire time. I had listened to it during my drive the day before, and somehow it had started playing again. I do not know how. Apparently, my phone had decided to take my relationship with God public without consulting me.

The hotel was not broadcasting the Bible.

I was.

Her words reminded me of something a man named Grant had said a few weeks earlier.

I pick up grapes from two vineyards in the Prosser, Washington, area a few times a week. Grant owns one of them. We have had only a few interactions, but he has always struck me as a genuinely nice man.

Grant knows I travel from Montana and that I am in his area frequently to collect grapes. Once, he asked, “Do you ever sleep?”

I laughed and implied, not much. The laughter probably answered his question more honestly than words would have.

A few weeks ago, I sent Grant something I had written about rest (link here). When I saw him the following week, he told me he had read it and enjoyed it. He said he could tell I was a religious person. He wasn’t sure whether I was a Christian or a Mormon, but there was something about me he liked.

“You can just tell,” he said.

The breakfast attendant had identified something coming from my pocket. Grant had noticed something coming from my life.

Most of what we broadcast does not come through a speaker. It comes through our words, our expressions, our responses, and the way we treat people who can do nothing for us. It can be heard in what receives our attention, what tests our patience, what makes us generous, and what happens when we are interrupted.

People often receive these signals before we realize we are sending them.

I was grateful for what Grant said. I am also aware that what comes from me is not always something I would choose to turn up. There are parts of me I would prefer others not hear. A hurried response can become a broadcast. So can impatience, fear, resentment, or the need to be right.

Jesus said the mouth speaks from the overflow of the heart. I have usually thought of that as a warning about words. Now I wonder whether much of our living is overflow.

What we repeatedly listen to, rehearse, love, fear, and practice begins to make a home within us. Over time, it comes through—not as proof of our virtue, but as evidence of our formation.

The attendant was trying to solve a small acoustic mystery, but she left me with a question much larger than the sound coming from my pocket:

What is coming from me?

Sooner or later, what we carry within us finds a way to be heard—often before we realize we are broadcasting.

Until next time,

George

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Beneath the Tarp

A scenic view of a highway surrounded by dense pine trees, with dark clouds looming over distant mountains.

Every time I stopped between Prosser and Joliet, I walked around the trailer looking for a bungee that had given up.

I carry several replacements. On a trip that long, one or two usually snap after spending hundreds of miles convincing me they have no intention of doing so. Optimism has many virtues, but it is not an adequate tie-down.

Beneath the tarp were grapes destined for our winery. The weather side of the tarp is white by design. Eastern Washington during harvest can be hot—hot enough that protecting the grapes from direct sunlight matters. White reflects more of the sun’s heat than a darker surface, which helps protect the fruit during the first part of the journey.

The design has a complication.

A tarp can protect the grapes from heat coming from outside while trapping heat beneath it. Covering the load solves one problem but introduces another that must be watched. Protection cannot be evaluated entirely from the weather-facing side.

I left Prosser in the heat of the Yakima River valley and began making my way north and east. By the time I reached Post Falls, I was more than fifteen hundred feet higher than where I had started, and the higher mountain passes were still ahead.

At Post Falls, the weather changed its mind.

The rain began, the air cooled and the wind came with it. The tarp that had begun the journey as shade was now functioning as a roof. The same covering chosen to reflect sunlight was being asked to keep water from reaching the grapes.

From there, the rain followed me east.

There was flash flooding around Missoula and Bozeman. After Livingston, the weather settled into a steady drizzle that continued toward Joliet. The tarp remained stretched over the same load, but the conditions surrounding it were no longer the ones I had prepared for in Prosser.

At every stop, I walked around the trailer.

I checked the tarp, the tension on the bungees and the condition of the load. A covering secured hundreds of miles earlier could not simply be assumed to remain secure. Wind works on loose edges. Rain collects wherever it is allowed to settle. Bungees stretch, shift and occasionally decide they have contributed enough to the journey.

The inspection did not take long, but it mattered.

Proverbs says, “Be sure you know the condition of your flocks, give careful attention to your herds.”

The instruction is agricultural, but its wisdom reaches well beyond livestock. Stewardship requires more than putting something in order at the beginning. It means continuing to know the condition of what has been entrusted to us.

That is more demanding than it sounds.

I prefer solutions that remain solved. I like the idea that once I have chosen the right tarp, secured it with enough bungees and started down the road, the matter should be settled. But the weather changes. Elevation changes. Fasteners weaken. Heat accumulates where we cannot see it.

The covering may still be in place while the conditions beneath it have changed entirely.

I can make the same mistake with people. Once I decide what care should look like, I can keep offering the same kind of protection without noticing that the weather has changed. I may provide advice when someone now needs to be heard. I may step in when trust would ask me to step back. I may preserve silence because it once kept the peace, without recognizing the heat gathering underneath it.

What once protected can eventually confine if no one continues paying attention.

That does not mean the covering was wrong. The tarp was necessary. It simply means that care cannot be reduced to the act of covering.

Jesus once prayed not that his followers would be removed from the world, but that they would be protected within it. It is a striking picture of protection. They would not be spared every difficult condition. They would be kept while moving through them.

Perhaps that is why real care requires such attentiveness. We cannot remove every person we love from every storm. We cannot guarantee an easy road or make the weather remain consistent. We can stay close enough to notice what has changed. We can inspect what we once secured. We can replace what has broken and remain willing to adjust the protection we were once certain would be enough.

The tarp could not know whether the grapes beneath it were all right. That responsibility remained mine. At every stop, I climbed out, walked around the trailer and looked again.

The tarp protected the grapes from the weather. Stopping to look again protected them from my assumptions.

Until next time,

George

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What is your relationship with rest?

The Cushion

The waves were breaking into the boat, and Jesus was asleep in the stern. Beneath him lay a cushion. Around him, the vessel carried the movement of the sea, rising and falling under a wind that was driving water over its sides. What belonged beneath the boat was gathering inside it.

Earlier, the boat had served as a makeshift stage and pulpit. The crowd beside the sea had grown so large that Jesus sat offshore and taught while the people remained on land. His voice crossed the water toward them. He spoke about a sower scattering seed, a lamp brought into a house, a kingdom growing in ways the person who planted could not govern. The people listened from the shore.

When evening came, he told his disciples to cross to the other side. They left the crowd and took him with them just as he was, already aboard. Other boats accompanied them. Behind them lay the place where he had been teaching; ahead lay the crossing.

Then the wind rose.

The waves struck and came aboard. The vessel was filling, and each one brought more of the sea into the space they occupied. Shore lay behind and ahead, but either direction required remaining on the water. They could wake the man in the stern. They could not step out of the boat.

Jesus remained asleep.

The disciples woke him with a question that carried their fear directly into an accusation.

“Teacher, don’t you care that we are dying?”

He was close enough to wake, present in the same vessel and exposed to the same storm. Yet his sleep had become difficult to reconcile with their danger. Water was coming over the sides, and the one they had followed had to be roused.

Don’t you care?

Jesus awoke and rebuked the wind. Then he spoke to the sea.

“Peace! Be still!”

The wind ceased. The water that had been breaking into the boat became calm around it. The men who had awakened him remained there with him, carried now upon a sea that had obeyed his voice.

He asked why they were afraid. He asked about their faith.

A few moments earlier, they had feared what the water could do. Now the water was calm, and they were greatly afraid.

“Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”

The question moved among men who knew his voice, could recognize him in a crowd and had already chosen to follow him. Yet here, with the shore still ahead and the storm silenced around them, they were asking who he was.

In the stern lay the cushion where he had been sleeping.

My son Jared and I talk every week. At 10:37 last Wednesday night, he sent me a question for our next phone call.

“What is your relationship with rest?”

My first impulse was to turn the question into an assignment. That may have answered more than I intended.

I told him I wanted to think about what actually leaves me rested, how comfortable I am allowing something to remain unfinished, and the things I enjoy doing that might look like work from the outside. Within a few sentences, I had organized rest into a small research project.

Then I asked what had prompted it.

Jared had been thinking about people who announce that they need a vacation in the middle of a demanding period at work. He could not imagine enjoying one while the work remained unfinished.

“Until the work is done, my mind cannot rest,” he wrote. “I’m always problem solving. And even after it’s finished, I’m thinking about how I could have done it better.” He said he could truly rest between projects. Once he committed to something, he intended to see it through.

I replied that he had my mind twirling and that I was considering writing about rest.

Jared asked about rest. I opened a project. You are reading the evidence.

There is something in his answer I want to honor. Someone who stays with difficult work gives others something solid to depend upon. A promise means more when the person making it intends to remain through the inconvenient parts. I would not want to talk about rest in a way that makes faithfulness sound like a defect. Nor am I certain that rest can always be recognized from the outside. Writing sometimes looks like work when it is restoring me. An occupied mind is not necessarily a burdened one. Some questions take energy from us. Others somehow return it.

Still, his description of what happens after a project is finished stayed with me. A task can be complete while the mind continues revising it. We remember the decision we would change, the detail we missed, or the better route that became visible only after taking the longer one. There is learning available in that review.

There may also be no obvious place to stop.

Jared’s wording made me realize that I had usually thought of rest as a condition rather than a relationship. I imagined it as something a person either had or needed, took or postponed.

A relationship develops through repeated choices. We establish expectations and decide the terms under which we will make ourselves available.

We can welcome rest when it arrives or ask it to come back later. We can treat it as necessary care or as compensation for completed work. We can receive it in the middle of responsibility or insist that it wait until nothing remains unfinished.

That last condition gives rest a very long wait.

Work has a remarkable ability to reproduce while no one is watching.

The terms we place on rest do more than organize our calendars. They gradually teach us when we are allowed to stop and what must be true before we can receive care.

Jesus slept before they reached the other side.

That detail has begun to reshape the way I answer Jared. Jesus’ sleep and his care for the disciples occupied the same boat.

Later, when the disciples returned from their own work and could scarcely find time to eat, Jesus invited them to come away and rest. People were still coming and going. The needs had not disappeared.

Jesus’ rest belonged to the crossing, not merely to what came after it. It did not cancel his care for the people in the boat or his purpose on the other side.

Rest is not always the reward for faithfulness. Sometimes it is part of how faithfulness continues.

When Jared and I talk again, I think I know what I will tell him.

I have spent much of my life believing rest belonged to the far shore.

Lately, I have been thinking about the cushion.

Until next time,

George

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Scripture: Mark 4 and Mark 6:30–34. Quotations are from the World English Bible.

The Second Storm

At 5:20 this morning, two raccoons began fighting beneath my open bedroom window.

I had planned to sleep in.

The night before, I had stayed up later than usual, comforted by the thought that morning would allow me to remain curled beneath the warm blankets for a little longer. There were no alarms demanding an early start and no reason to exchange the warmth of the bed for the cool air coming through the window.

At least, that had been the plan.

The night had already awakened me once.

All day yesterday, we had been expecting a storm. The forecast included wind, rain and the possibility of hail, so earlier in the day I moved all our vehicles beneath cover.

The storm waited until approximately 1:30 in the morning to make its entrance.

Lightning did not seem to come from any single direction. It flashed from every corner of the sky, with each second appearing to belong to another burst of light. Thunder followed. The wind moved through the trees and pressed against the house.

It was quite a spectacle.

Yet the storm brought no rain and none of the expected hail. It filled the sky with light and the night with noise, then passed without damaging anything.

Eventually, the lightning moved farther away, the thunder softened and I returned to sleep.

Then came 5:20.

The sound beneath my window was not thunder. It was hissing, snarling and the unmistakable disturbance of gravel. Two raccoons had chosen the landing at the end of our driveway as the site of what appeared to be an important territorial disagreement.

There is plenty of room around our place.

Of all the available Montana, both raccoons apparently wanted the same few square feet.

I lay there listening and wondering why either one cared so much about that particular patch of gravel. One could have moved several yards in any direction and found more unoccupied space than it could possibly use. Territorial jostling seemed unnecessary when there was so little territory worth defending and so much territory available.

I understand that raccoons are simply raccoons. They do not attend conflict-resolution seminars, submit themselves to pastoral counseling or pause to consider whether a disagreement is worth disturbing someone’s sleep.

Still, as I listened to them fight, my thoughts returned to the message I had preached the previous morning.

Judges 11 tells the story of Jephthah, a rejected man who became a mighty warrior. When the Ammonites threatened Israel, the people who had once driven him away invited him home because they needed someone who knew how to fight.

Jephthah defeated the enemy beyond Israel’s borders, but he carried another enemy home. His wounds, his need to secure what had once been denied to him and his mistaken belief that God’s favor could be negotiated through a bargain all followed him through his own front door.

His daughter paid the cost.

That was the warning of the message: we can win the battle everyone sees while losing the one that matters most. The enemy outside us may be defeated while the fear, grievance or false belief within us remains fully armed.

The raccoons made me think even more about the message our church will hear six mornings from now.

Judges 12 begins immediately after Israel’s victory over Ammon. The external threat has passed, but peace does not follow. The men of Ephraim arrive with a grievance. They accuse Jephthah of failing to include them in the battle and threaten to burn his house down over him.

The complaint was not entirely new. Earlier in Judges, Ephraim brought a similar grievance to Gideon. Gideon answered carefully, honored them and allowed their anger to subside.

Jephthah was not Gideon.

He responded with accusation and force. Words became weapons, resentment became warfare and Israelites began killing other Israelites. By the end of the conflict, forty-two thousand men of Ephraim were dead.

The same kind of complaint produced two very different endings.

The difference was not merely what was said. The difference was what those words encountered inside the person who heard them.

A humble answer found a way toward peace.

An old wound found another war.

With a little encouragement from Selena’s flashlight, the raccoons disappeared into the darkness and the gravel beneath my window grew quiet. But I remained awake, thinking about the two storms that had interrupted the night.

The first came from the sky. It announced itself in the forecast and illuminated the horizon when it arrived. We could not prevent the lightning or silence the thunder.

The second began much closer to the ground.

We are generally better at recognizing dangers on the horizon than the pressure gathering within us. Those storms seldom appear on radar.

They gather around an insult we keep rehearsing, a place we believe must be defended, an old rejection we have never surrendered or a fear that convinces us another person’s presence threatens our own. They may begin quietly, but once released, other people are forced to live beneath them.

Not every conflict is caused by a lack of room.

Sometimes there is plenty of room, but something within us has decided there cannot be room for both of us.

Peace requires more than the absence of opposition. It requires the humility to believe that another person does not have to lose for us to have a place. It asks us to surrender the need to make new people pay old debts and to let God heal the wounds that otherwise turn every disagreement into another battlefield.

At 5:20 this morning, I found myself asking a harder question:

Have I given the people nearest to me any reason to brace themselves for storms I have refused to surrender?

The world will send enough weather across their lives.

By the grace of God, I do not need to add my own.

Until next time,

George


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Joy and Happiness: A Fine Pair

Joy and Happiness. Two words we often use as though they were twins.

They certainly resemble each other. Both brighten the face, lighten the heart and make better company of us. From across the room, it can be difficult to tell them apart.

Spend enough time with them, however, and their differences begin to show.

Happiness is easy to recognize. Happiness enters the room carrying good news. It opens the curtains, turns up the music and finds a reason to order dessert. Happiness arrives when the test results are favorable, the children come home, the work is finished or an unexpected check appears in the mailbox.

Happiness has friends too. Laughter, Celebration, Relief, Surprise and Gratitude usually follow it through the door. Before long, everyone is talking louder, staying longer and wondering why we do not get together more often.

We sometimes speak dismissively of Happiness because it depends so much upon circumstances. We call it temporary as though temporary things cannot be valuable.

But sunsets are temporary. So are songs, birthdays, ripe fruit and conversations that last late into the evening. Their brevity does not make them shallow. It makes our attention important.

Happiness notices when life is being kind.

Joy is more difficult to identify.

Joy does not always enter carrying good news. Sometimes it arrives quietly, takes a seat beside Grief and does not ask Grief to leave. Joy can inhabit a hospital room, attend a funeral and remain present through a season no one would willingly choose.

Its closest companions are Hope, Peace, Trust and Endurance. They are not as noisy as Happiness and its friends, but they know how to remain when the room grows quiet.

Happiness says, “This moment is good.”

Joy says, “Even when this moment is not good, goodness has not disappeared.”

The trouble begins when we make the two compete. We praise Joy for remaining with us through difficulty while dismissing Happiness as shallow—as though receiving a beautiful moment with gratitude were less spiritual than finding strength during a painful one.

Happiness does not need to survive every change in circumstance to be valuable. Its strength is attention. It awakens us to the gifts directly in front of us and reminds us to receive them with gratitude rather than suspicion.

Joy does not turn pain into pleasure. Its strength is depth. It allows sorrow to remain sorrow without permitting sorrow to become the entire truth.

They need one another.

Joy keeps Happiness from believing the party must last forever. Happiness keeps Joy from becoming so serious that it forgets how to dance.

Joy gives us the strength to endure what life brings.

Happiness gives us permission to enjoy what life gives.

Ecclesiastes says there is “a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance.” Perhaps wisdom is not found in choosing one side of that sentence. Perhaps it is learning to recognize which companion the moment requires—and welcoming each without asking it to become the other.

There will be days when Happiness rushes through the door with an armful of reasons to celebrate. We should make room, turn up the music and receive those moments without apology.

There will also be days when Happiness cannot find the house.

Joy knows the address.

Until next time,


George


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The Boyz in the Boat

The Boyz above Flathead Lake after climbing Wild Horse Island

A special group of men has been part of my life since we were barely old enough to call ourselves men.

We met during our freshman year of college. We had little money, limited wisdom and no idea where our lives would eventually take us. We knew one another before careers, marriages, children, grandchildren and all the other responsibilities that gradually attach themselves to a person’s name.

The year was 1985.

Nearly everything around us has changed since then, but the bond we share today is no less real than it was when we first became friends. Time has added years to our faces and history to our conversations, but it has not taken away the ease of being together.

There is something rare about spending time with people who knew you before you became whoever the rest of the world believes you to be.

We recently converged on Polson, Montana, for a retreat with the Boyz. We rented a large house on the southern shore of Flathead Lake. The accommodations were more than adequate, but the real attraction was beyond the windows. The yard ended at the water, where a dock waited for the pontoon boat we had rented.

At least, that had been the plan.

The first afternoon brought wind—the kind that makes the surface of a lake look angry. Waves of three and four feet rolled across the water, removing any temptation to pretend enthusiasm was the same thing as sound judgment. The rental boat remained safely tied to the marina dock, and our dock at the house remained empty.

The following morning, the wind was joined by an all-day rain. It was not the passing kind that briefly darkens the sky and then moves along. It settled over the lake, soaked the lawn and kept us inside.

So we talked.

Cards were shuffled, dealt, gathered and shuffled again. Old stories surfaced and were corrected by the other eyewitnesses. Events that one person remembered with absolute confidence were amended by six people who remembered them differently. We caught up on the parts of life that do not fit easily into occasional telephone calls or group messages. We laughed at things that would have required far too much explanation for anyone else to understand.

The weather had kept us from doing what we planned, but it had not kept us from what we had come to do.

We had come to be together.

The next morning arrived with no rain, a light breeze and noticeably improved dispositions. We drove the five minutes to the marina and boarded the pontoon.

Before we left, the attendant showed us a map of the lake and pointed out areas where shallow water, rocks and submerged obstructions required particular attention. Repairs resulting from shallow water that has not been properly respected can add up quickly.

Unfortunately, I have some experience with that equation.

The lake was still unsettled enough that we decided against immediately crossing its open water. Instead, we turned into the Flathead River and headed downstream toward the Séliš Ksanka Ql̓ispé Dam, formerly known as Kerr Dam, roughly four or five miles away.

Several hundred yards into the river, nearly everyone decided to jump overboard for a swim.

Everyone except me.

I do not particularly enjoy getting wet, and with other boats moving along the river, someone needed to remain aboard and maintain control of the vessel. I was willing to make that sacrifice.

Once everyone had climbed back aboard, we continued toward the dam. We were not in a hurry. Familiar music from our college years played through the speakers, and the conversation moved easily between the present and a time when those songs had been new.

Before long, we reached the first shallow area the attendant had marked on the map. The channel narrowed, and the color and texture of the water began to change. Whatever waited beneath the surface could not always be seen clearly from the helm.

Without being asked, the Boyz moved into position.

Several stood along the port side while others watched from starboard. They leaned over the rails, studied the water and called out what they saw. One warned me away from a shallow patch. Another identified the deeper channel. Someone else watched behind us to make certain the stern and motor cleared what we had already passed.

I remained at the controls, but I was not navigating alone.

We made it through without touching anything expensive and continued toward the dam. Once we arrived, we stayed for a while with no particular agenda. We floated, listened to music, looked at the surrounding hills and enjoyed having nowhere else we needed to be.

Later, we began searching for a rope swing we had been told was somewhere along the river. After a little looking—and more assistance from the men stationed along both sides of the boat—we found it.

A couple of our crew members decided to try it. Unfortunately, the length of the rope had not been calculated with their equally long frames in mind. Their feet entered the water well before the swing reached the point at which they might have risen gracefully into the air, stealing most of their momentum and nearly all the elegance from the attempt.

They plowed into the river rather than soaring above it.

The rest of us offered the “encouragement” close friends are uniquely qualified to provide.

We eventually pulled onto shore for lunch, and the men along the rails once again watched the depth and guided the boat safely in and out. By then, the arrangement had become almost instinctive. Whenever the water became uncertain, everyone found a place from which he could see and offered what he knew.

After lunch, we decided to make the longer journey to Wild Horse Island.

The ride gave us time to appreciate the scale of Flathead Lake and the mountains rising around it. When we reached the island, we began searching for a place to go ashore. The first landing appeared inviting from a distance, but as we approached, submerged pylons and deadfall began appearing beneath the surface.

It looked like a minefield.

There may have been a safe route through it, but finding that route would have required risking the boat to prove it existed. We turned around.

That decision did not diminish the day. It simply preserved our ability to continue it.

We followed the island’s shoreline until we found a designated landing site and a trail climbing toward higher ground. We had come prepared for a day on the water, not a hike. None of us had brought water, and Rod’s only footwear was a pair of rubber slides better suited to crossing a pontoon deck than climbing Wild Horse Island. It was not an impressive display of preparation, but the opportunity to climb together again was too difficult to resist.

So we began climbing.

The trail rose away from the lake through dry grass and scattered ponderosa pines. As we gained elevation, the water widened beneath us and the mountains appeared beyond it. The climb awakened memories of the times several of us had hiked and hunted together years before, when steep trails had required considerably less discussion.

Eventually, we stood together above the lake, no longer the young men who had first become friends but still recognizably the same group. The photograph from the summit shows seven men standing side by side, some holding walking sticks acquired along the way. It records where we were that afternoon.

Looking at it later, however, I realized that the image that best explains our friendship was never photographed.

It happened earlier, when the channel narrowed and six men moved toward the rails.

From the helm, I could see ahead, but not everything. The boat itself obscured hazards close to the hull, and glare concealed what waited beneath the surface. The Boyz could see the water from angles I could not, so they leaned over the sides and called out what they saw.

A little to port.

Stay right.

There is something beneath us.

The channel is clear ahead.

The wheel and the clearest view were not always in the same place.

There is something important in that distinction. Being responsible for a decision does not mean we possess all the wisdom needed to make it. The best friends understand this. They do not grab the wheel or demand control. They move to where they can see, tell us the truth about what is there and trust us to steer.

For most of my life, I thought enduring friendship was built primarily by looking back—remembering old stories, familiar songs and younger versions of ourselves. Those things matter. But perhaps friendship endures because it also looks ahead.

The summit photograph is the picture we will keep.

The image I will remember is six friends leaning over the rails.

They were not looking at me.

They were looking where I could not.

Come to think of it, we have been doing that for one another since 1985.

Until next time,

George


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The Shoe, Part Three

By the time Dirk sat in an interview room at the Charlottesville police station, two hours had passed since the delivery truck disappeared from the alley. Much of that time had been spent telling the story—first to a uniformed officer at the scene and then, in greater detail, to Detective Quinn, the broad-shouldered man who had followed them across the buildings.

Someone had found Dirk a pair of blue disposable slippers that were two sizes too small. Rose sat beside him with an ice pack pressed against her knee while Quinn reviewed the notebook pages he had filled as he listened to their account. A wall clock announced each passing second with more authority than the room required.

When he reached the end of his notes, he looked across the table.

“The woman who called herself Elena is Marta Salazar.”

Dirk remembered the name Quinn had shouted in the alley and the half step the woman had lost before continuing toward the truck.

Quinn explained that Marta and Mateo were suspected of stealing eleven loose, cut-and-polished Colombian emeralds from a private shipment bound for a dealer in Washington, D.C. Together, the stones weighed 27.3 carats and were insured for six hundred thousand dollars. They had been arranged in a narrow protective sleeve that could be folded small enough to conceal in a hand.

Police had been watching the restaurant because Mateo worked in the kitchen and investigators believed he had hidden the emeralds somewhere inside. They expected Marta to retrieve them that afternoon. What they had not expected was a handwritten message inside a fortune cookie.

“The note was part of their plan,” Quinn said. “They knew we were watching the exits, so they needed confusion behind the building. A frightened customer running into the alley, calling for help or confronting an employee would give them that.”

“You mean they hoped someone would find it?” Rose asked.

“They put notes in several cookies. Yours was simply the one that worked.”

Dirk remembered the torn piece of paper and its two desperate words. “Why pretend she was being held prisoner?”

“Because decent people behave predictably when they believe someone is in danger. They stop asking questions, take risks they would ordinarily avoid and become difficult for the police to ignore. Once you appeared on that platform, I had to divide my attention between two suspects and two civilians who had no idea what they had entered.”

Rose lowered the ice pack. “We thought you were chasing us.”

“I was trying to stop you.”

“You might have said you were a police officer.”

“I did. Between the kitchen equipment, the refrigeration unit and the distance between us, I don’t think you heard me.”

Dirk shifted in the plastic chair. The slippers pinched his toes. “Did they have the emeralds when they left?”

Quinn looked at his feet. “When your shoe fell into the alley, did Mateo pick it up?”

“Yes.”

“How long did he have it?”

“Less than a minute.”

“And after he returned it, did anything feel different?”

Dirk remembered the unfamiliar ridge pressing against the inside of his arch. He had blamed the ladder, the fall and his imagination.

“There was something beneath the arch.”

Quinn leaned back. “Then your shoe may have carried six hundred thousand dollars out of the restaurant.”

The sentence took several seconds to settle over the room.

“You think he put the emeralds inside it?” Rose asked.

“We believe the stones were arranged in a narrow chamois sleeve and wrapped in thin plastic. Mateo could have opened the lining along the arch, pushed the packet into the space beneath it and pressed the material back into place.”

“But he couldn’t have known I would give the shoes to her,” Dirk said.

“No. He probably expected Marta to take them from you after you had carried them beyond the restaurant and through everyone watching the exits. The broken glass provided a better opportunity.”

Dirk remembered Marta collapsing beside the gate. He remembered looking for blood and not finding any. More than anything, he remembered how quickly she had stopped limping once she was wearing the shoes.

“So the cut was staged.”

“Most likely. The bruise may have been real. People sometimes assume that a real injury proves the truth of the story attached to it. It does not.”

Rose stared at the ice pack resting across her knee. “We were trying to help her.”

“I know,” Quinn said. “That is why the plan worked.”

Quinn closed his notebook. “Do you still have the note?”

Rose reached into her pocket and removed the two folded slips of paper she had carried from the restaurant. Quinn separated the handwritten message from the printed fortune, placed the note inside a clear evidence sleeve and returned the fortune to her. Rose folded it along its original crease and slipped it back into her pocket.

When Dirk and Rose finally left the police station, the sun had fallen behind the buildings and the streetlights had begun to glow. Dirk’s borrowed slippers slapped against the sidewalk with each step while Rose walked beside him, carrying the melting ice pack against her knee.

Beneath the first streetlight, Rose stopped and removed the fortune Quinn had returned to her. She unfolded it and read the sentence again, this time with the afternoon’s events gathered behind every word.

“Do not mistake temptation for opportunity.”

“I remember,” Dirk said.

“I believe this may have been intended for you.”

“I believe I have received enough wisdom from Chinese food for one lifetime.”

Rose smiled. It was the first time she had done so since they entered the alley. “You still owe me lunch.”

“I paid for the first one.”

“I meant another lunch—one that doesn’t end with a police interview.”

Dirk looked at her. “Is that something you would consider?”

“Yes,” she said. “But perhaps we should try Italian.”

The refrigerated delivery truck was discovered later that evening behind an abandoned warehouse. Its ignition had been wiped clean, and the restaurant uniforms Marta and Mateo had worn were folded on the front seat. Mateo’s black work shoes were found at the bottom of a nearby dumpster. The green suede shoes were not inside the truck, the warehouse or any of the surrounding buildings.

Quinn called Dirk and Rose whenever the investigation produced something worth reporting. During the first several weeks, they used those calls as reasons to see one another. Their second lunch involved no secret messages, rusty ladders or suspected kidnappings. The third consisted of sandwiches eaten on a park bench, and their fourth began at Burke’s bookstore, where Rose found Dirk standing in the same aisle in which they had met. Before long, Quinn’s calls became less frequent, and Dirk and Rose stopped requiring an update as an excuse to spend time together.

Rose continued to grieve her father. Dirk did not attempt to explain the loss, diminish it or fill the place the man had occupied in her life. He listened when she wanted to talk about him and remained nearby when she did not. Dirk discovered that Rose laughed easily when she was not being pursued across rooftops, and Rose learned that Dirk’s courage appeared less often as confidence than as an unwillingness to leave someone alone when he believed that person needed him.

By autumn, they had become a couple, although neither could remember the conversation in which the decision was made. The relationship formed quietly between bookstore visits, long walks and meals during which the only messages inside the fortune cookies had been printed by a machine.

The investigation remained open. Marta and Mateo seemed to have disappeared, and no trace of the emeralds was found.

The answer had already begun before Dirk and Rose shared their second lunch.

The cargo compartment lurched as Mateo accelerated away from the alley behind Yuan Ho in Charlottesville. Marta caught one of the hanging door straps, pulled the rear door closed and secured the latch. The frightened expression she had worn for Dirk and Rose disappeared before their voices finished fading behind her.

She sat on the floor, removed the oversized green shoes and held them in her lap while the truck moved through traffic.

The truck had been waiting since before sunrise. Mateo had rented it two towns away under an assumed name and backed it into the restaurant’s loading area before his shift began. With its rear doors open and the refrigeration unit running, it looked like one more delivery vehicle waiting to be unloaded.

Mateo did not see the shoes again until they reached the abandoned warehouse. When he opened the rear door, Marta handed them to him. Before removing anything else, he pressed his thumb against the lining along the inside arch of the left shoe. The packet remained exactly where he had placed it.

“All eleven,” he said.

Then he removed his black kitchen shoes and tried on Dirk’s. The fit was not exact, but it was close enough. He tightened the laces, stood and took several steps across the warehouse floor.

“They’ll do.”

Marta and Mateo changed clothes and vehicles. By midnight, their restaurant uniforms were folded on the truck’s front seat, Mateo’s black shoes rested at the bottom of the dumpster and the two of them were traveling toward Washington Dulles International Airport under names belonging to people who did not know their identities had been borrowed.

They reached the airport the following morning.

At the security checkpoint, Marta passed through first. Mateo followed until an officer pointed toward his feet and instructed him to remove the shoes. He untied them, placed them directly on the X-ray belt and watched them disappear through the rubber curtains.

The bin stopped inside the machine.

An operator leaned closer to the screen. The belt moved backward several inches, paused and then carried the shoes forward again. Mateo stood barefoot on the other side of the metal detector while another passenger collected a laptop and a child complained about having to remove his jacket.

The operator studied the screen for several more seconds.

Then the bin emerged.

Mateo retrieved the shoes, put them on and retied the laces. He did not look at Marta until they were walking toward the gate.

They landed in Liberia that evening after changing planes in Atlanta. Mateo had worn the green suede shoes throughout the journey, removing them only at the security checkpoint in Dulles. After renting a car, they drove the short distance to Playa Hermosa and registered at a small hotel under the names printed on passports belonging to two people who had never heard of them.

The following morning, less than forty-eight hours after the delivery truck disappeared from the alley behind Yuan Ho in Charlottesville, Marta and Mateo walked onto the beach.

They parked away from the larger groups of visitors and followed the water beyond the families gathered near the shore. Mateo walked ahead while Marta occasionally looked back toward the road. They continued toward a formation of dark rocks where the surf struck with enough force to discourage conversation and the curve of the shoreline concealed them from the parking area.

Between the rocks, Mateo sat and removed the green shoes. Grime from the Charlottesville alley still marked the white soles, but the suede now carried evidence of airport floors, rental cars and roads far beyond anything Dirk had imagined when he purchased them.

Marta took a folding knife from the canvas bag. She worked the blade beneath the lining along the inside arch of the left shoe and opened the seam Mateo had made in the restaurant. When she inserted two fingers, she withdrew a slender packet wrapped in thin plastic.

Inside were eleven cut-and-polished emeralds, each resting in its own fold of a narrow chamois sleeve. Together, they weighed only 27.3 carats—less than a fifth of an ounce—but had been insured for six hundred thousand dollars.

Marta lifted one toward the morning sun. Light entered through its broad table and returned from its carefully cut facets in a green far deeper than anything surrounding it.

She returned the stone to its place, folded the sleeve and concealed the packet inside the canvas bag. Mateo put on a pair of sandals he had carried with him, and they left the green shoes where the rising water met the rocks.

A wave reached them before Marta and Mateo returned to the car. The right shoe was pulled into the surf and disappeared. The left became wedged between two stones, where the water rinsed away the last traces of the Charlottesville alley and pushed sand into the opening beneath its arch.

It remained there until a man celebrating his twentieth wedding anniversary noticed it and began to wonder how it had arrived.

The woman had never needed to be rescued.

She had needed a courier.

The message in the fortune cookie had not been a plea.

It had been an instruction.

Until next time,
George

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